Fear

When people ask you what you're afraid of.....what's your first thought? Do you think of spiders, snakes, crawly things of any sort, heights, small spaces, dying, or darkness? Or maybe you don't think of stuff like that. If you're like me, then the things that come to your mind aren't really things you can see. Things like: being alone, failing, getting hurt, letting people down, falling, not being good enough, or maybe afraid that no one could ever love someone like you. A big one for me is not being good enough. Not being able to measure up. That fear holds me back sometimes from trying new things. I always feel like there's some bar that's been set, and I stare up at it as my hands get sweaty and my mouth goes dry. I feel like its so high and that there's no way I could possibly get over it. And then sometimes you feel like you can't ever do anything right and that you'll always mess up no matter what. But that's not true. No, I'm not perfect. Yes, I'll mess up. But I won't ever give up. So I've got to keep trying and keep moving on. Even when fear tries to hold me down. Courage isn't the absence of fear; its being afraid and choosing to go on. So I'll keep going. Never giving up. And I'm so thankful that I have Someone who will be with me through it all (: