When people ask me how I'm doing, sometimes I honestly don't know what to say. There's just a deep ache inside of me that I can't figure out how to explain. How do you tell someone that your heart feels like it's bending inside of your chest? How do you tell someone that every time you breath, your chest tightens and you can't breathe. How do you tell someone that if you say one word then you're going to start sobbing? These feelings are so hard to explain and are felt so deeply. Some things just can't be explained by words, and some things are best left unsaid. It's moments like these that we cry in our room, and try to hide away. It's moments like these when I wonder why the Lord would love someone like me. God is holy and just, and He hates sin. He has every right to cast us away, and yet He reached out in love. Forgiveness is there, but we have to choose to accept it. To accept the forgiveness of God, we first have to realize that we are sinners, deserving of punishment, and the only way we can be saved is through the grace of Jesus Christ. But if we refuse to accept Christ, then we have chosen to send ourselves to hell. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, and He is waiting for us to come to Him. And when we turn to Him, and rely on the blood of Jesus Christ to save us from our sins, then He welcomes us with open arms. It's the nights I want to just lock myself in my room and cry, that I am SO incredibly thankful for my Lord and Savior and the grace and mercy He has shown me.
P.S. For those who might be running tonight
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