Keep On

Do you ever feel so overwhelmed its like the weight of the world crashing down on you? You're tired of standing and you don't want to do it on your own anymore. You have millions of thoughts, hundreds of feelings, and so much to say. But you can't open your mouth and your heart just aches. You want so bad to tell someone, so you don't have to carry it on your own anymore. But whenever we're asked if we're okay, why is it that our first response is usually: "I'm fine"? Usually they believe us and move on, all while we're secretly begging for them to see past our lies. Why do we do that? Maybe because we don't want them to have to worry about us. Maybe we don't want to be a burden. Or maybe we're afraid they'll see how weak we are. Afraid that they'll see what's underneath our smile. Whatever the reason, it still hurts. And so we hope for someone who will see behind our masks. We all have masks we wear. Wether its putting on a tough front, faking smiles, or simply retreating within ourselves. We want someone to see. But we're too afraid to ask. Too afraid to voice the doubts, fears, and thoughts within us.

Spinning in circles, seemingly endless.
Unsure of where to go.

Chasing dreams but never catching,
arms stretching but never reaching.

So I simply held back, I closed myself up.
I thought it would be okay if I kept quiet.

A wall was around me, one I had built myself.
Not sure if I was hiding, from the world or from myself.

Questions ran through my mind, questions never spoken.
Afraid to ask, afraid to speak, scared of my own voice.

Frustrated with my feelings, wishing they would stop.
Wanting out, but not knowing where to start.

If I seem afraid, I want you to know......I'm trying
But the wall is built high and strong, so it might be awhile

Held captive by myself, so frustrating.
But I'll never give up the fight.
(written by: me)