Rainy day playlist

Unfortunately I think I might be coming down with something. After waking up with a really sore throat I have been downing tea like crazy! Tea is good for a sore throat, especially if you add a spoonful of honey and stir it in.  Needless to say, I really don't have time to get sick right now. Not before finals anyways. That's the good thing about a rainy Saturday though---I get to relax, enjoy some tea, work on school and new songs, and play around on the piano. Taking a break from reality is super helpful sometimes, and is definitely needed on occasion. On this particular break, I've been enjoying some really great music. Here's what part of my playlist looked like today :)

Perfect for jumping into puddles.

Seaside shadows.

When you've had a bad day.

This song never gets old.

Great song. Great cover.

This video honestly made me start to cry. I can't imagine life without my dad.

Can I have that lighthouse? And her voice?

One of the most beautiful songs I have ever heard.

This is how I play my keyboard too.

Must find the piano music for this one.

Alright, well I think that's all for now!

Covers and such

     There's something incredibly comforting about thunderstorms. I could honestly curl up with a blanket and sit in my chair besides the window and watch the lightning flash. It's always my favorite kind of light show, and I haven't seen anything better. Except for possibly the Northern lights, but I haven't seen them..........yet! I'm determined to go see them sometime before I die.
     On a side note, I recently discovered an incredible cover done by Owl City. I must say, there are so many interesting things to find when I should be doing homework instead. (I promise I'm not a slacker, it's just been a crazy past two weeks). And so, my perusing youtube paid off and I found this absolutely beautiful song. It amazes me how Adam Young never fails to bring a smile to my face with the music he makes. This song is an incredibly sad song actually, but in his cover there's a sense of hope. I love it! And I hope you all will like it as well (:  I actually found the piano music for this song and so hopefully I will be doing a cover of it soon! I'll keep everyone posted! I should really start posting more videos I guess, but I'm slightly embarrassed because our grand piano is pretty old, and sort of out of tune. As long as no one mind's that though, I would be happy to play.  (:

Crunch time

Well, finals are upon us, and I'm dreading/looking forward to these next two crazy weeks. It's times like these that I feel so overwhelmed with homework I just want to pick up all my books and throw them out the window. I realize that this isn't exactly logical, but sometimes it seems like such a great idea. When finals hit they bring on endless amounts of caffeine, late night papers that end up lasting till 3am, an enormous amount of snacks always close by, and music that inspires me to write algebra equations, ten page papers, and what not. Downing a container of mango ice cream might also be in order. But asides from that, the final result? Blissful freedom of no longer having homework hanging over your head! And sleeping in here and there as opposed to, well, never. Unless you have summer classes, then your freedom has to wait a little longer. Thankfully no summer classes for me this year! Instead my summer will consist of working, working, and the occasional trip here and there (hopefully). It's so close I can almost taste it. One of my favorite things about summer are the evenings. The daylight lasts longer, the fireflies are out and glowing, the stars shine brilliantly, late night swims in the lake, the warm air and the soft breeze, and nighttime car rides. First things first though......just make it through finals!

Strong enough

     Some days I tell myself that I'm strong. I square my shoulders, tilt my chin, and laugh when I want to cry. I fold my arms across my chest and say that I want to stand alone. I want to be brave. I want to be strong. I want to be the shoulder that others can cry on. I don't want to be a burden. I don't want to complain. I don't want to worry anyone. Most of all, I don't want them to know that on the inside I feel so weak. I've built a wall around myself and I can't let anyone in. I want so bad to be strong enough to protect the ones I love. I want to keep them from all their hurt and pain. If I could, I don't want them to have to go through anything bad. 

     I feel like I have to measure up to a standard that's been set in front of me. In my head I can hear the words echo: “You have to be strong. You can't be weak.” I try so hard to endure things on my own. I want to do it myself. I don't want help. At least, that's what I tell myself. It's like in order to be strong, I have to do it alone. It seems like such a lonely road. Sometimes I feel as if I'm standing alone on the top of a cliff and the rain is pouring down. I want so much to break through the barriers and tell someone that I'm not okay. But is that selfish? They could be going through a really rough time and I might not even know it, so why burden them with my troubles? 

    The desire to be strong hurts so much. It's like I'm trying to climb with a huge burden on my back. I'm always trying to stay one step ahead. One lie leads to another as I try to avoid the “How are you?” question. I just want to be strong. It's like I have to be. The girl who longs to protect those around her, wants so much to be protected. The one whose always there for others, just wants to know that someone is there for them. We just want to know that someone could love us for who we really are.