Healing Begins

I'm madly typing away at a paper over here and I think it's time for a break. As much as I love writing I have a hard time writing something that has to be written. I don't know why but it's much harder to write something when you have to do it as opposed to having the freedom to write whatever and whenever you like. Anyways, this paper I'm writing is about a song and it really god me thinking. The song is entitled Healing Begins and is sung by one of my favorite bands: Tenth Avenue North. This song really has a message for everyone in its honest, heartfelt lyrics. The song starts out with a very powerful sentence: "So you thought you had to keep this up. All the work that you do so that we think that you're good." This really strikes a chord with me because I know that so often I work hard and try to do good only to feel better about myself. Too often we work at being good because we're trying to hide the shame we harbor on the inside. The very next line in the song talks about how the walls we build up are just glass on the outside. So though do all this so “that we think that you're good,” the walls we're building are just glass, and they're fragile and could shatter at any second. Yet we still think we have to keep it up so that others will think that we're good. This won't do us any good! I have the hardest time opening up and letting people in because I don't want them to have to worry about my problems, but also because I don't want them to see what I'm really like on the inside. I'm the type that prefers to bottle my feelings up as opposed to letting them show. Even though I bottle it up, I know I really shouldn't and that it will only hurt me in the end. Because it's only when I come to where I'm broken within, that point where I finally expose my dark secrets to the light, that's where healing truly begins.