I'm not alone

“Since you were precious in My sight, you have been honored, and I have loved you..” (Isaiah 43:4a)

     Sometimes I look in the mirror and wonder how God could ever love someone like me. In the mirror I see all my mistakes, my faults, and I remember all the times that I have messed up. It's hard to see past all the imperfections, but they do say that you are your own worst critic. “I'm not good enough.” I cry out in the middle of the night. “Lord, why would you love someone like me? Why would You save someone like me?” It's a hard question, but through the night I'm gently reminded of the Lord's promises. It's at night when we are plagued by doubts and assailed by fears. Nighttime is when we're alone in the darkness and we begin to wonder about things, and we whisper our deepest fears, afraid to say them aloud.

      Some nights, I can't stop the tears. And yet once I've cried my heart out, and my shaking has faded, I know that God is still there. I know that I'm not alone in this fight. I am precious to Him! And He has promised to take care of His children. I was never promised that being a Christian would be easy, but I was promised time and time again that I would never have to go through anything alone. And whenever my past mistakes and failures confront me, I can't help but remember the verse 1 John,1:9 “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

      What an incredible thought! To think that once I have confessed my sins to the God of the universe He is merciful and forgiving towards someone as imperfect as me. What deep, vast, immeasurable love. And to think that also, “As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgression (sins) from us.” -Psalm 103:12- Not only have I been saved by grace, but I have a loving Savior who has promised to never leave me or forsake me. I'm not alone. And for that I am so incredibly thankful.

But now, thus says the Lord, who created you, O Jacob,
And He who formed you, O Israel
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by your name;
You are Mine.

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.
When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned,
Nor shall the flame scorch you.
For I am the Lord your God,
The Holy One of Israel, your Savior;

--Isaiah 43:1-3--

P.S. "I'd like to look in the mirror  without hiding my eyes. I'd like to see what You see..."