Grace

I have so much to learn about the grace of God. I still catch myself thinking that I have to be good enough if I want good things to happen in my life. When something bad happens, sometimes I think it's because I haven't been good enough. But God isn't like that. Nothing I do could ever make Him love me more than He already does, and nothing I do could make Him love me any less than already does. His love is constant and steady. Unlike our love, His love doesn't depend on our actions. And He is so gracious to me when I don't deserve it at all. I can't help but think of a verse I read recently,

"I am not worthy of the least of all the mercies and of all the truth which You have shown Your servant..." Genesis 32:10

God loved me when I was still His enemy. He loved me when there was nothing lovely in me. This fact so overwhelms and amazes me, I'm left speechless. With nothing but a thankful heart, and even then it's not always thankful, I want to honor Him in every aspect of my life. In Christ I have freedom, yet I am bound to Him. Not because of duty, but because of love. It's a stumbling and feeble love compared to His, but it's what I offer up to Him. He deserves my life and my all. 

"if we are faithless, He remains faithful---for He cannot

   deny Himself."

2 Timothy 2:13